David Montrose over at Sugar Daddy Diary wrote today about a particularly meaningful relationship he'd had with a 20-year-old girl. His key passage:
I had violated all my rules (also seen in my awesome book, ‘Sugar Daddy Diary’ on Amazon). I had seen someone who was 20, and developed a real relationship, something I hadn't really done in 10 years. Funny thing is that I never had any regrets. I even said to her: ‘I plan to stay with you even though I can name 2 ways I can lose in this. You are single, so you have the time to find a bf or a SD. And then I’ll be history. Or you may turn 21 and say, “Geez Dave thanks for the memories, I am taking off”‘. She indicated she may surprise me. I couldn't imagine what it would be like being broken up with her, walking around some places we have in common knowing that a few seconds or minutes earlier she would have been walking the same place, but now we would have nothing to do with each other.I have broken a few rules myself over the past five years: unprotected sex, being out in public too close to home, and, of course, falling in love with my mistress. I completely understand where David's coming from around loving this girl. When I vacationed in the city where Hayden now lives, I felt her nearby when I'd walk with my family in areas where I knew she'd been. That sense of longing threw me completely off my center for that weekend. And I know that, had we seen each other, she would have pretended that I wasn't there. It's been four months since we last spoke, and over three months since I sent the closure email. We are completely done with each other, forever. And this is how it ought to be. I am, as they say, over her.
As I wind things down with Jade and retire from this crazy lifestyle, and refocus my attention to my marriage, my family, my work, and my health, I can't help but imagine where I'll be in 10, 15, or 25 years from now. How will I remember this time? What will be the lessons I take away from it? Will this be a dark time of regret in my life, or a time of wonderful discovery of who I am inside? Will I still be married to DW, or will I be single? All will be revealed, I guess; I just hope I don't fall too deep down the rabbit hole of despondency.