Aussie: Talked to landlord... have to pay out $1,800 fee, then late rent, and whatever before someone else takes the place ($2,000) per month...I can't do it.I recalled our last time together, and how distracted she was, how wooden, how mechanical it felt to fuck her. Like she knew that she needed the money so badly she had to have sex with me. There was no tenderness, no laughing. I couldn't wait for it to be over. You'll recall how I noted that she appeared to have lost weight. This morning it occurred to me that she may have been hungry and not had the money to eat, or just the stress of the situation was melting pounds from her already thin body. Those thoughts had me feeling unbearably sad for her. But I couldn't help her to the extent she needed. She made a really bad choice, then ignored my counsel, both at the outset when I warned her of my concern, and later when I found out that she hadn't been paid in over a month (she told me she didn't want to talk about it).
Me: Oh, man, I thought this was a month-to-month. With 30 days notice you're out.
A: After contract which was to March.
M: Oh, no, you signed a lease.
A: Of course, I had to. Remember the fraud place I had for one day? They made me sign a lease [here] because of that.
M: What if you just left? They can't follow you to Australia
A: Thought of that...But I couldn't come back ever with law stuff.
M: Not true. You can make good on it later. You're not in prison, babe.
A: They drill me (and every Non-American) when you come just for a visit -- been there.
M: You're saying ICE (Immigration and Customs Enforcement) would refuse you entry because of unpaid rent?
A: If they [the landlord] does a lawsuit, then everything comes up.
M: Not if you settle. You can't stick around watching the bill go up and up. Leave, contact them from home, settle on an amount, then clear it up. No lawsuit.
A: True. I have to get rid of all my shit.
M: Shouldn't be hard, talk to your neighbors.
A: True again, yes. Stop being right all the time. I'm just in panic mode.
M: With age comes wisdom. Panic is the worst. Breathe, darling.
A: I know, I'm trying. It's just my whole life, you know?
M: Yes, but the right thing to do is right there under your nose.
M: Yes, and don't think you've failed either.
Besides, I'm not here to rescue anyone that far down. I thought about contributing to her plane ticket home, and may just do that, but only if she asks me.